You Passed Bad Judgement Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Did it trouble you enough inside yourself,
To lock and block out my love for you?
To completely shut down.
Testing how I feel for you.
To know I have loved you then...
As I love you now and you do this to me?

Accuse 'me' of infidelity?

Me...
I've been too faithful.
Loving, caring, giving and...
Open, honest and overly grateful,
Just to have you in my life!
That's right.

And yet...
My pet.
The love of my life.
I never felt that returned to me at all.
And still you question my devotion.
To think I would cheat?
To put a stall in our relationship,
Creating my own downfall.
When you opened your mouth,
I couldn't believe what came out of it.

I am going to be grateful whether you like it or not.
Whether you feel the way I do.
Or...
Perhaps you forgot!
But I love you!

Did it trouble you enough inside yourself,
To lock and block out my love for you?
To completely shut down.
Testing how I feel for you.
To know I have loved you then...
As I love you now and you do to this me?

Accuse 'me' of infidelity?

The only thing 'that' accusation says,
And does...
Is make me wonder,
Who's fire you have been igniting.
'Cause I know it is not mine.

You want to discuss this?
Or do you want to walk out on me?
It's up to you!
Because I'm not going anywhere.
And I suspect you aren't either.
Since I see in your eyes...
You passed bad judgement,
And made a mistake...
Together we can erase.

'To assume someone else should be perfect,
while excusing our own imperfections to be tolerated...
is ego 'trippin'. Some grow tired of it. Others?
They become more sickening with their demands.
You have to go through this experience to wake up,
and know it is true. Who wants to put up with an egomanic? '

No baby,
I'm not hardly talking about you!