Trying to live my life
Tired of all this strife
I've caused pain and tears
from hurt in the past years
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As I sit back and ponder,
rereading poems I've written years before.
Thinking of the meanings and I began to wonder
are my poems just impish outbursts of a child,
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Have we become so distant, that I am able to walk by without a glance?
Simply disappear without a trace
And you wouldn't care, nor take notice.
It is my fault that we became this way?
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Can you understand my anger?
Can you see my tears?
Sometimes I wish death was near
I look at my wrists
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Can you see the sadness in my eyes?
I know that my pain will never go away
Can you tell that my heart wants to die?
When I wake up I know my pain will not end today
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My soul is black as night
I live in darkness
Never knowing wrong from right
Starving with madness
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Can I hold you tight, throughout the night?
Can I lose myself in your eyes, and never have to worry about saying goodbyes?
Can I hear your fears, and understand your tears?
Can I enjoy your kiss, while you make me go through life in bliss?
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My life seems so long
now that you're gone
I never imagined my world without you
I feel so lost & don't know what to do
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Through anguish and torture
I let you in from my past to my future
You onced asked why I let it go this way
and at first I knew the answer
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