Bequeathed Burden Poem by Majdoleen (Maggie) Sukayri

In the ether, but still you live in me.
Constantly I see what our day would have been
We have a small and cozy home,
You're sitting here with me.
Blowing out the 59 candles on your cake
On this special day, I would only think of one thing
As a gift, from daughter to mother.

My long days of labor finally have meaning,
Because I'm finally, as promised, taking care of you.
Our dreams of living under the same roof
Mother and daughter,
Now our reality
All those years of waiting,
All this time on my knees, praying
For this day, it was all for this moment now.

I want no man, I want no love,
And I want no child
I live for one cause
Your forgiveness
My years of silence
That drew us apart,
Is now my reason for repentance
A mission I need to carry on

This day is for you and me.
I'm in the arms of the one who bore me
The womb that once held me
Free from what the world offers
Free from pain
Free from greed
And now I give you this
Freedom

I set you afar,
In a land liberated from remorse.
I now shelter you from it all
For I now take this burden
Close it in… this is my chance
To repay a fraction…
If I were to spend my life
And the lives of those who burdened you
And the lives of all our descendants
I would still be indebted to you

So I choose all eternity.
Till the day I stand before God
This is my vow, to switch all my virtues,
With all your sins
I will be unbreakable for you and me
In His Grace's presence I am guilty for my silence
I welcome His wrath, and I'll bathe in his fiery hell
To grant you that moment of bliss

Amman, Jordan 3-17-2012