Chocking On Tears And Pain Poem by Courtney Caine

chocking on the tears
the pain to hard to swallow
the cries to low to be heard
the scars to deep to be seen
looking into the eyes of sorrow
and seeing that's where i belong
the fear of loneliness haunts me
being lost and on my own gives me
pain that you would never wanted
the words cut to deep they will never heal
the love that once was cuts out the still beating heart
leaving me soulless and dead
but i want it like that
the pain is gone now
no more worries
it is all over in a blink a eye
the day goes by
one night of rest
seems like years
the days grow longer
the weeks never ending
you want it to be over
begging for the forgiveness
that i will never get
i have forsaken everything
i want nothing but to be alone
because to let you in again
will lead to nothing but pain
and i know am not strong
enough to go through it again
all i can ask is why do i suffer like this
what have i done so wrong
please tell me am tired of feeling this pain
it never goes away
i cant stand this pain any longer
please cut out this heart
that loves to hard and trust to easy
please make all of it
go away hold me as the nightmares take over
all they show me is the hurt the pain
make it go away pleases don't let it hurt me anymore