Citrus Smiles Poem by Eila Mahima Jaipaul

the sun moves past the citrus smile adhered to my skin
blinding, it assures me that its too late for another mistake
drawn to the rhythm, my heart follows its beat
slowly, the wings unfurl
and I wander to your earth, guided by my doubts
yearning to feel my worth.
we are made to feel the sense of duty.
but bound by nothing I feel your heat
I can't escape.
and I succumb to your desires
open your eyes and I am there
full of grace... knowing that your last breath is what I've become
hold on to the night love, there will be no redemption.
there is no object to crave.
restless, cast to wander, with my unfurled wings.
I belong to no one
and my destiny ties me to my duties
life full of decadence watches my decent.
ever present lording over me.
quiet words are broken
falling to the floor.
its painful to me
its all I ever wanted
somewhere I got lost on my way.