Confusion? Poem by Jo Marie Takes the Knife

Why is it that your words affect me so?
With everything that happened why can't I let go?
I try to be a strong person and keep my head held high
I never had a problem saying goodbye
So why do I continue to let you in?
The words, your words they used to be meaningless then
So what has changed?
Is it because of your threats, could I truly care?
But when I needed you, you was never there
So after all these years I thought I was immune
And no longer would I let your words consume
Me I worked hard to get where I am
But I'm curious as to why I keep letting you in.
You've cause me pain before
But this time you caused me enough pain to crush me to the floor.
And it wasn't pain it was anguish
For you made my little brother vanish
Some even you may not understand the tie we share
Because no matter how old he gets I'll always be there
And you knew this
But you told me I was a bad influence
How could that be
for whenever he cries, he cries for me
So why would you take him away
and still want to hurt me to this day?