Kiss & Tell Poem by Jade Leven

lipstick on the bathroom mirror
can you tell that I have been here?
a dark hotel room, I can't see
so I guess you wouldn't have noticed me
at one point in time I was happy to
just be lying next to you
but now I'm pulling it all apart
I'm packing my bags and packing my heart

I dread the feeling I will deal with
when I have no one to love
when I have no one to heal with
will that be the end of me?
will I be sorry...
that I'm shoving my clothes into a suitcase
walking down the hall toward the door
saying I need to find a new place
for myself, though I'm not really sure

excuses, excuses
the truth is, the truth is
that I'm not who you think I am
and I was surprised as well
that I loved you faster than I normally can
but I'm not the type to kiss and tell,
so...

I'll run away from you
away from what I never thought I'd do
I'll wonder why I left you there
hypothetical questions fill the air
if it meant more to you than it meant to me
and if my pull was stronger than gravity
then I'm honestly sorry, I made a mistake
as I go, at least I know that when you wake...

you'll know that I have been here
when you see my lipstick on the bathroom mirror
by that time I'll be halfway to hell
but don't worry, because I would never kiss and tell