Lay Me Down Easy Poem by Leah Ayliffe

Lay Me Down Easy

Rating: 5.0


I see different streets as I drive
My mind wanders, dreaming where they may lead to.
I am tired of the road I'm on
I don't want to be on this road anymore.
Turning down a different path
Engine ignited by the heavy push on the pedal
Fast, windows down, cool winter weather
I try to breathe and it feels like I've been holding my breath far too long.
I panic at the choice I've made
Does freedom come with regret?
I don't even know where I want to be
Or which identity I want to wear now.

I just keep putting the song on repeat
I just keep putting the song on repeat.

Fresh from a holiday away from reality
Where the sun shines warm and a body lies next to mine,
Riding on his bright green motorcycle and feeling at one with the hours.
Taking me down to Florida like a road trip dream,
Being in motion is my way to happiness.
Being in motion with someone who makes sense of me.

Already these days are now the past
A teasing of how life could be if it were easy.
Winter has become toxic to my beliefs in being free
While I drown in the bitterness that I have become
Saddened by the loss of the smiling girl I once was not long before.
I can't stand to be here another moment
But here I stay.
It's my fault, my own undoing.
I can't escape the deafening thoughts that swim in my head.
I am sure to drown and die to be laid to rest
Little doll, sleeping beauty in the snow
Until a new girl is reborn alive,
Free to dance under the summer sun
Free to be whoever she wants to become.

Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Topic(s) of this poem: lost,summer,winter
COMMENTS OF THE POEM
Hazel Durham 24 December 2015

Complex, deep and a joy to read, as you try to understand the choices you have made, the wrong road has brought you to a place, a feeling that you don't like, as you long for the happiness you once had that was fleeting just a reminder that you're trapped in a mindset, as you try to find your way back to freedom! I'm amazed at the way you write, just so beautiful!

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Daniel Brick 22 December 2015

This poem displays different frames of reference: the Florida experience is idealized because the perpetual summer there enhances experience; winter in Toronto renders even the best experience suspect. ONE MUST MUST HAVE A MIND OF WINTER, Wallace Stevens wrote, but he flourished on his annual Florida vacation! Setting is a key element in your poetry, it evokes both superficial and deep reactions from you. But the inner subject of this poem is freedom, not in some abstract sense, but the very immediate level of choices you can - will - must make, and the rest of it which is nor free. And that part of your life is being imagined into existence in this very poem. It's not complete yet, is it? But it's ongoing much like the car ride in the poem which is ongoing even after the poem closes.

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Paul Davies 16 December 2015

A convincing knit of skewed assumptions and expectations, of what is full and what is empty, bewilderingly inverted. Well done, whew. 'The demon that you can swallow gives you its power, and the greater life's pain, the greater life's reply' (Campbell) .

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