Longing For Lonely Poem by Bianca Walker

Longing For Lonely

Rating: 5.0


Not much has changed since you’ve been gone
I awake in the morning
I humm to my favorite songs
I fall asleep at night with the bathroom light on
Occasionally
When I awake, I notice that you are gone, and still…
I am not lonely

I’ve turned this house into a home
Alone
Still…I am not lonely

I want to go back to feeling empty
When my life was over shadowed by expectations,
To the days when I was longing...
For something…
For someone…
For anything

Full is much to heavy

Full is an immovable rock, a bolder in the pit of your stomach that paralyzes you

Full has no compromise

I never knew that about success
Who would’ve thought a life so colorful would lack?

That my strengths are in shades of Gray and Black

It’s ironic that when you live your life in the light
You long for the dark
Some sort of pain or spark
To remind you that your human

I miss the days when I was unaware of what I was doing
When I still sustained a slight air of confusion
Full is much to calculating
Full is a plan, contrived
Full is being to heavy to dance
Full is lack spontaneity of chance
Full is many faces who chant your name aloud
Full is never being lost in the crowd
Once again, I want to be ignored

Am I ungrateful that I am longing to be empty?
I do not take for granted what has been giving to me
Lately, I find myself longing to be lonely.

©2007

COMMENTS OF THE POEM
~ Jon London ~ 18 June 2008

beautifully composed piece, such stunning emotion drips down the page...i loved this approach....to remember what it's like to feel empty....excellent *10 stacks of dishes Jon

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Krupa ... 30 June 2008

I read this poem again and again..10/10 for u

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Krupa ... 26 June 2008

Touching, Too good! Awesome! All the feelings were so well expressed... Good Work!

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Faith Breisblatt 23 June 2008

This was a beautiful poem your thoughts were very interesting, and well written. I think I understand exactly what you are trying to portray, though I know I have never felt this myself. But seriously, great poem, loved it.

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Robert Howard 23 June 2008

When a loved one is declining from a terminal illness, the grieving process begins long before the death certificate is signed. A similar process occurs when love or friendship comes to an end. There may be a point of no return that is only so identified when the hoped for return does not happen. Sorry I sound like Dr. Phil or some damned fortune cookie.

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Roy Gotaas 19 June 2008

The truth I suspect, Bianca, is that you ARE lonely! One can be, you know, more lonely in a crowd than alone? Alone, you can find company in your memories perhaps. In a crowd, the noise and bustle drowns out the chance to examine memories: there's only the present in a crowd and maybe one, often involuntary, step into the future. Either way, don't long for loneliness, Bianca! Please! Long to be alone, if you will, but not for loneliness. Loneliness, in the aftermath of the loss of love, is a bleak, cold and rather pointless condition, given colour only by pain.

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