Lost Forever Poem by Julius Victorio

Your birthday's coming soon
and I'm lookin' up at the moon
Knowing how much you hate me

I know I didn't know myself back then
And now I know you liked me more than
I liked you as a friend
But it still hurts
Because it still looks
Like I used you
Probably abused your love

Ooh why Am I
Confessing in the middle of the night
Crying
To the star lit sky
'Cos I know that every season when I could've been with you
I lost you forever

I miss the times
we'd meet and I
would hug you and say, 'hi'
maybe that's just my
sentimental mind
But I guess that's 'cos I know that
I've lost you forever

I miss when we'd walk hand in hand
I miss when I'd sit with you and yours or my friends
'Cos I could tell 'em, 'check this is my girl and this love will never end'
Then I ended breaking up a heart that would never mend
and I'm sorry but I know words is not enough to make amends

Whatever I believed in
What did I ever achieve in the end

I know I am to blame
And I've been feeling hurt and shame
For over a year
It's past but I still fear
Not knowing what I fear

My emotions took control and took the best of me
My body lost control and I released a beast
That was set free
On innocent people and their family's

I just want you to know
I'm sorry
and you are still the best girlfriend I've ever had
probably the best friend I ever had
It's not a poem anymore this is serious
I still love you but I know
I've lost you forever