Muddy, Rocky And Long Road Pt.1 Poem by Eliza Elaine Lim

Part 1

1. I really wanted to run to you but I was scared.
2. I wanted to share all my thoughts and my plans in life.
3. Despite of my fear, I opened up to you.
4. And we discovered our differences.
5. Distance filled in.
6. That created another fear.
7. Fear that I might lose you.
8. So I kept all my thoughts and feelings to myself.
9. Until one day, I was bottled up.
10. I asked you if we could talk.
11. And poured it all out on a saturday night.
12. I poured it out but you said you don't want dramas.
13. I felt unwanted.
14. A big distance filled in.
15. You were clueless.
16. Clueless that I was starting to fall in love with you.
17. Because I acted completely the opposite.
18. I fought against the idea of falling in love with you.
19. Because of the fear that you won't catch me.
20. And I got myself into trouble.
21. No, not just me, but 'us'.
22. I was drowning in my fears.
23. You were clueless.
24. I needed you, I knew I do.
25. I poured all of my thoughts and feelings for the last time.
26. Still, we couldn't meet each other halfway.
27. I needed you so badly at that moment.
28. But you couldn't hold my hand.
29. And let me go.
30. I was hoping you'd save me.
31. But still you let go.
32. I held your hand as if it was the last time.
33. I hugged you.
34. I even kissed you on the cheek though I was so scared I'll lose you.
35. You were the first guy whom I've kissed...
36. And we've gone to our own separate ways.