My Biggest Mistake Poem by Katy Rachel

I was wrong, dead wrong.
How could I be so blind?
I thought this was perfect.
I thought everything was fine.
I kept saying to myself,
“This is meant to be.”
I thought I understood everything
Between you and me.

But oh, I thought wrong.
I didn’t have time
To see the mistakes
Being made were mine.
I was so selfish.
All I could think of was me
Instead of thinking how
You would’ve wanted it to be.

I dove right in saying,
“I’m loving this.”
But how did you feel
The night of that first kiss?
How did you feel
After you held me in your arms?
Did you feel loved,
Or did I cause you any harm?

NOW THAT IT’S OVER,
Of course, I’m concerned.
Did this love make you happy,
Or do you feel just after burn?
Looking back, I’m disappointed,
Because I didn’t even try
To see just how you felt,
To see it from YOUR eyes.

All the time I assumed
You felt like I did.
I treated you like you were mine,
Not like another kid.
And now it’s too late.
You’re gone like yesterday.
And I’m sitting here wishing
We could have done it your way.

Who was I
To take everything you knew
And block out the sun
So no light could come through?
I was pushing you to be
Somebody else.
I was so blind not to see
Your true, wonderful self.

You must be so happy
Now that you’re free.
Now that you’re living your life
Without stupid, selfish me.
I’m sorry, so sorry,
And I want you to know:
You had every right in the world
To let me go.

So when you look back on me
In your days yet to come,
I hope you’ll feel something.
I hope you won’t be too numb.
You’ll probably think of a girl
Who tried her best.
A girl who tried to love you right,
But blindly failed the test.

Now I see the light.
I admit I was wrong.
So I’ll be sure to get it right
When the next guy comes along.
But until that day comes,
I’ll look back on how it used to be.
And when I look at you, all I’ll think is:
PLEASE, OH PLEASE, FORGIVE ME.