No Longer There Poem by lia bee

Hello my darling, How have you been? We havent spoken in so long.
You tell me there is someone new and your world revolves around her.
You are wondering what i am here for, not even you care anymore.
I know it was my fault, that i didnt give you enough of my time,
I know i was more concerned with silly things in time.
I have gotten what i deserved and you have moved on and
As you stand before me, looking down on me waiting for an answer
Willing me to look at you, i have to force myself to look into those eyes
They are almost screaming at me, but i cannot hear what they are saying
My mind will only think of the memory of how you used to look at me with those eyes
I have to look away.Some say it wasnt meant to be, i have tried so hard to convince myself of this
Everytime i see you though i wish it wasnt true i wish it wasnt her you wanted.
Again it is not your fault i am the only one to blame for it was i who foolessly let you walk away
I was the one who didnt come after you and tell you it was you i needed.
My stubborness stopped me from every taking a step.
Now as i look upon you, as i take quiet glances that you dont see,
I wish it didnt happen this way, i wish we were meant to be,
As i wish, you walk away and i go to try and follow, to tell you all these things
I see you looking at her, My heart breaks a little bit more,
I realise i am no longer there.