Nur Meiyati


Our First Lovemaking


I wanted to see your house so I told you
I wanted to know any parts of your house where you stayed in
When we arrived there the house was empty
You had 'evacuated' all the house staff
You locked the front door once we got in
I sighed with relieved
I felt as if we were cut off from the world outside, the real world

Like a little girl I began to explore your house
First, I run upstairs to check the balcony you often told me
You were often there
While enjoying the full moonlight and, as you said, imagining me
You followed me everywhere
You followed me when I checked all the rooms on the second floor
Giving explanation about this and that

I stopped on the staircase to see the sight of the living room and all the things there
You were one step lower than me
When I wanted to go down you were standing in the middle
I was not a too innocent girl, so I knew what you wanted
I smiled and let you hug me
I do not remember exactly how it started
But I thought I closed my eyes to give you a sign that I was ready
And we kissed so passionately
A very loooooooooooooooong kiss
That we only stopped when it was difficult for me to breathe
Then we did it again
It was not the first time for me to kiss a man
But I never felt like this before
My body was burned with a desire
To do it more and more

Then I told you I wanted to know the rooms on the first floor
But what I asked first was your bedroom
Did not know exactly
Whether I wanted to know the room so I would know about it
Or it was for my subconscious desire for you
You showed me your bedroom
“You will not take me to bed, will you? ” I asked you, a bit worried
“No, unless you want too” you assured me
I felt relieved
“But are you sure you don't want it? ”
“I don't know”
I really did not know
Instead I sat at the edge of the bed
You approached me, standing in front of me
Then you sat beside me, did nothing
But your presence that was too close to me evoked a feeling
A feeling that I could not even recognize
My body was burned
A yearning to be touched overwhelmed me
I reached out my arms and put them around your neck
No words needed to be spoken
As we kissed and we explored like we wanted to devour each other
And when you were undressing me
I closed my eyes
Enjoying the sensation
When you unbuttoned my blouse, from one button to another
While you kissed my face, my lips, my neck, my...

As we were completely n...
I had no time to blush or feel shy, as I enjoyed every touch from you on me
Never knew before that each part...each part of my body could be enjoyed
Just as I enjoyed your body
Each touch evoked a sensation
And when we reached at the peak of our lovemaking session
I was overwhelmed by a feeling of indescribable
I understood then
What men wanted from women and what women wanted from men
We felt connected
We were so close
No barriers, no bars, no walls between us
Not even a single thread
So close, that I had never done and would never do this kind
To all of of the people I had been close so far:
not to my parents or my brother and sisters

Our souls were united
We merged to each other, to become one
I realized later that my soul would never be complete
Although each still had a boundary
But I felt my soul was only half of the merged soul, the oneness
I became so attached to you afterwards
And, maybe, or least how I felt, you also became attached to me
To let my body n... in front of you
And to allow you to enter my body
Was, to me, a point of submission, a willingness to surrender
And a trust
To take and to give

I blushed
To see the small blood stain on the sheet
Sorry, you have to ask for 'ibu' to wash it
But you said you would not
You would like to keep it

So many impressions I had that day
Two tears dropped from my eyes for an unknown reason
I wished much that you would tell me you loved me
Not just being in love
You said nothing
I just saw your eyes beaming
I did not want this confusing feeling to ruin my happiness
To love and to be in love are the same, I comforted myself
And since then I decided that both were the same
So I rested my head on your chest
You hugged me

Why, I asked
You were so patient to wait for me
You did not force me or push me to do this
“It is your body”, you explained
Only you who have the right to your body
To let or not to let anyone else touch you
But I knew your body wanted it
In this case, I understand you
More than you understand yourself

(Indonesia, November 2013)

Submitted: Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Edited: Tuesday, November 26, 2013

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Poet's Notes about The Poem

This is part of the story of (I name it now) “You and Me” that beginning with I Informed You, 'I am Pregant'. In fact it should have been somewhere before 'Timeless'. But it can also be read after it.

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  • Nur Meiyati (11/27/2013 6:53:00 AM)

    A precious response from POETRY, a Facebook group

    Kenneth Holmes First passion
    When,
    Nature calls
    And we fall
    Love is all,
    Nothing more
    As we answer
    natures call
    And give our all
    Timeless ecstasy
    Or you and me
    What will be
    Will be.
    For all eternity
    What a discovery
    To see.
    November 25 at 5: 56pm (Report) Reply

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