Swimming In Darkness, Drowning In Doubt Poem by Elizabeth Sheaffer

Swimming in darkness, drowning in doubt
Knowing my life has been turned inside out
I'm wandering along in a world that is cold
Reliving all of my memories of old
I can't shake this feeling that the best was lost
I never imagined the height of this cost
Depression's black cloud hangs, huge and ominous
Sanity, now, just seems so amorphous
It seems I am lost in a world full of hate
Don't know what to do, unhappy with fate
My self-worth was shattered, my esteem now gone
Deep in my heart I know I'm not alone
But I feel that way, and it hurts me deeply
I can't understand why they treat me so cheaply
I can't seem to find an escape from the pain
Lost in this world, the people mundane
I just wish that everything could be clear
That I knew how to fight this adolescent fear
Until then I'll never know what life is about
I'm swimming in darkness, drowning in doubt.