Understanding Your Not Here Poem by NaNa Nana

I continue to miss you. I try making my self believe and understand you have made it to a better place but it's not working. All these questions pop up with no answers. Which leave me in doubt and soon I havent figured anything out. I am back where I started, not being able to move at least one step foward. How hard is it to understand your not here anymore. How hard is to understand your smiles, your voice, your love has vanished. How hard is it to keep living, knowing everyday i wake up, you will not be there. How hard is it to understand My graduation, children, and home will not share a moment with you. How hard is it to get over you!