Have I begun to fall away?
Distance myself, ignoring you?
Have I faded and dulled against a dropped shade against which I lean?
Perhaps I have dissuaded you
Pushing you aside, erasing you partially
No, you are not the main focus point
There are others who take center gleam
More prominent, attracting, dominating
Mysterious and untouchable to me
Foreign and somewhat forbidden
New and far, yet so close
There are others
I have refocused
I have reconsidered
Yet, my focus seems to drift and float
I do not settle, commit, take charge for some aim
I ponder and wonder and observe in some clouds
I am up there, not all present
I am up there, shifting and untouched
Perhaps I am too timid and naive to dissent and impress upon the ground
Too shallow to take root
Too dreamy, silly, and timid to bother to try
Right there, right there
I do not even have to reach
Just open my mouth, smile, and look to connect
Meaningful, deep
Yet I hold back and debate
I discourage and elude myself, saying that it is okay
There is no need
There is no way
There is always next time
And then, next time comes
And it is once again too late
Oh, heart
Oh, mind
Why must courage in relationships be so difficult, so complex, so attached with spurting emotion and confusion, so foreign and unreal, so perplexed?
Oh, me
Oh my
Just quit the piddling and decide!
Set to your track
Create it
Stick to your set
Embrace it
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
I usually find myself in your poems but this time it is different, this time I wish that the girl I like reads this poem and realizes how much she means to me and how good we can be together only if she embraces my love, leaves me a bit sad even thought this is a good read, thank you! :)