Where Do I Go From Here? Poem by ANJALI KAKATI

No explanations,
No reasons,
No goodbyes.
You walk away
Closing doors after door.
Punishing me
for “loving”,
When they say
Its “hate” that is bad,
Leaving me here
Once,
Not once bothering
What if today of pain
I
Shatter or die?

I cry my silent tears
My soul wailing,
And
writhing in despair
I cry.
You were just a dream
But love
It was real.
Wish could read you clear
The clutter was too loud,
The fog too dense,
Distances too wide.

O how my heart rocks
With my sobs
You will never hear
Blindly
I followed you.
Pray,
Where do I go from here?
Lately,
my paths converged
on you,
My life sap
were you.
Where do I go from here?
To hell or heaven,
Either ways
I die
Writhing in unbearable pain
For you never said
goodbye.
So much so for loving you
A thousand deaths
Now I die.
O tell me beloved.
Where do I go from here?
Cause
Homeless,
Pathless,
Painfully
I shall die.
Without you
O beloved, silently
I will die.
-anjali