Withdrawal Poem by Kay Tee

It feels good without you
But my soul feels empty
the feelings I have
They misrepresent me
I'm strong but I'm weak
I'm not feeling steady
I know what you're thinking
'You're nothing without me'
But something you can't see
The darkness, the misery.
Look deep into history
Lost love, just old memories
You Took and destroyed
What could have saved you
I gave my honor my love and I praised you
Apparently nothing I said could have phased you
You yell at me when I sit and I gaze at you
It's just cause I remember how you used to gaze back
You're abuse gets no remorse
I want no part of that
You'll remember it closely
As I take my last breath
I pray that the wickedness of your words you'll regret
And live knowing that I was better, better than her
To forget the past easily
I don't believe there's a cure
The guilt will fall into you
Not a thought will be pure
How could you have been sure
When you still loved her more
I remember when you first said you loved me and waited
I felt like you were part of me
I felt appreciated
So I looked into your eyes and felt your heart beat
I moved over a bit closer right next to your seat
I whispered ' I love you and I always will'
We both felt the feeling that made us stay still.
But our minds and our bodies
they go on a journey.
To feel you again, just something I'm yearning
for
Who you are? I don't know anymore.
I'm convinced I'm looking at a boy that I love
I'm releasing the pain, in the form of a dove
I'm letting you go with a blessing you know.
I guess what I'm saying just goes to show that
I miss you.
I miss your kisses.
I miss you telling me your secrets and wishes.
I miss you saying you'll give me that ring.
But it's too late now,
I'm hanging on a broken string.
The wings I once had,
They're now broken wings.
I fly away, At least I try to
But they bring
me down.
They take me down with you.
Everything we share turns into an issue.
I miss you I need you.
Don't you understand.
I need you to love me
I don't need a friend
Love me and hold me and say you want this forever.
Say that no matter what you'll remember
The feeling you had when you first said it all.
' I love you and ill tell you every day from now on.