Black Hole Poem by Lilith Jenenji

Oh my god, this pain again,
it's eating away at my soul.
I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry...
I never meant for things to be this way..
Maybe if I had tried harder,
never been so stupid,
never broken that friendship,
maybe everything would have been better...
Maybe I could have fixed things and had a happier life.
maybe then I wouldn't be thinking about suicide...
Maybe then I wouldn't be so sorrowful all the time.
This pain again, it'll be there, forever at the
bottom of my heart, and soon it will fill the whole thing
and it'll turn into a BLACK HOLE...

Why? Why? Why...
Is this pain back,
I was hoping it would leave me be, let me be
happy with myself all over again...

But Pain is a DEATH NOTE,
and once it's here, it seldom leaves...