The Pain Inside Poem by James Davis

There's a gnawing feeling in my gut....its like the butterflies have turned into moths...There is no light inside I've become completely dark....I feel this pain because of my broken heart... or could there be more..... is it your love that they are gnawing for? Is this apart of my punishment or is it Karmas own amusement? ... Am i to blame for my current pain.......or is it something more....? Could it be the fear that set in...The fear you cause from treating me like i was only a friend...was it from my imagination... or the fact of your other infatuation...The infatuation that led to the big crush...the crush that pushed our love apart... the crush that i felt deep inside but were to blinded to realize... You have caused this pain inside of me because you were secretly crushing without mentioning a word to me... You just pushed my buttons and waited for the anger to consume then you killed me... You took my life for a crush... I hope he doesn't do the same someone life is not a game... So here i sit with my sharpened blade ready to end the pain... but i cannot take what isnt mine.... I cannot end the one thing that made you shine... but the pain is swelling inside... Still till this day i want to die but all i ever do is cry from the pain inside