Thinking Of You Poem by Alicia Meyers

Heart beat fasts, pounding inside my chest. With every beat I hear, I close my eyes and see you standing there. Looking at me with those baby blue eyes, and your perfect white smile. I wish we were still together, because I think of you a lot, and it rips me apart. But when the darkness falls, and the light leaves, I'm haunted by your memories. Those days where we kissed on the beach, and held each others hands, even though mine was usually sweaty. You looked at me like I was your favorite book or your favorite thing to eat. You looked through my imperfections, and saw nothing that was not perfect. I was perfect to you, all the time. You said I was gorgeous, you said I was perfect, until she came along. At first, you two were friends, cared for each other more than you cared for me. I always catch a glimpse of you both, smiling and laughing, but when you and I were together, it was nothing. Then you had your first kiss with her. You kissed her the way you kissed me. And when I saw you both, eyes closed, and you looking like you loved it with anything, I knew I was out of the picture. When you came up to see me, to see if everything was fine, you saw me heartbroken and tears welling up in my eyes. You said sorry dozens of times, but all I responded was that sorry wasn't enough. I knew you loved her very much, and I knew you love me, too; but we can't live on like this, so I let you go. You were gone, still thinking of me, but all I want you is to be happy. I gave you one last kiss, that I will never forget, and I know I made a huge mistake, that I will forever regret. And now, looking at my picture of us, my heart beats loudly with big thuds. It's still broken, and needs more fixing, but I just want you to know, I'm thinking of you.