Crystal Van

Are we friends or are we not?
You told me once, but I forgot.
So tell me now and tell me true,
So I can say, I am here for you.
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the heart within me lies so deep and cold,
the smile upon my face is a fake,
it tells a life of lies,
people take me as a joke,
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i see the skies above me turn to gray,
i cant feel myself breathing,
the soft whisper of the wind calms me,
then i my heart takes its last beat,
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my blood shot eyes,
my tears turn to blood,
my dreams fade away,
my heart shrivels to nothing,
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my knuckles are swelling,
the whole in the wall is unknown,
the feeling of a pounding in my chest is getting faster and faster,
my anxious body pauses to a halt,
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