Hannah La Gaire

I may look happy
But deep down inside
I am a withered plant crying for help,
But once you act the right way and say the right things everyone thinks you're ok,
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The voices are always in my head,
They haunt me everyday,
Even when I lay in my bed,
I do not want to do anything day by day,
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With so many people around me
I can't stop wondering what they are thinking about me,
And how they are probably making fun of me.
I know it's only in my head,
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Alone,
Isolated,
Hope doesn't want to grow,
I sigh, cry, scream but I'm still
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I'm afraid of being in large crowds, nobody understands what it feels like. It's like I'm in a space that's too tight.
But they told me, "Go interact with people, make some friends, that won't hurt you right? "
Just being around at least five people that I do not know makes me coward,
I want to move pass this stage, I really want to move forward,
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The voices in your head are all a fraud,
Look into the mirror and tell yourself you are beautiful.
After each accomplishment you make, give yourself an applaud.
Don't feel sad, make your days joyful,
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I see the ocean before I go to bed
I hear the whispers all around me
I smell the odors of everyone surrounding me
I touch the carvings on my dresser and wonder why
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Life
What is life?
Life is a precious thing we have
Life is the best gift we have which was given by the most high God
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A friend of mines once asked me who is my favourite Artist
I said it have quite a few artists I like but there is one I love; his work stands out to me and his name is God
She was like what? I don't believe there is a God, but I am trying to find out where we came from because I know we didn't just popup from nowhere.
Then I said He is our creator, our helper, our strength and you can never find anyone like him. He is omnipotent loving and caring, and he loves us all.
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I covered all my pains with a smile,
As I lied about my life and it killed me inside,
My conversations they dried,
As I pushed everyone aside.
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In the crowd yet so alone,
A whisper lost a silent moan,
Fading into the shadows feeling unseen,
A heart that aches where hope has been.
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In the stillness echoes call,
A heart that trembles afraid to fall,
Dreams like whispers lost in the night,
Searching for solace a spark of light.
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I carry the knowledge you can't perceive
You don't need to ask me where I found the clues,
With every question I weave and retrieve
To test your words to see what's true.
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You wait till I'm gone to use your soft voices,
Your whispers are so silent yet they're loud.
Little do you know I hear them all,
For I hear soft voices clearer than loud ones,
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Today I sat on my chair trying to figure out why I am always down,
I used to be that happy girl who always had a smile on her face and never frown.
I always gathered with my friends in my community to play games,
We loved hanging out with each other that we gave each other funny nicknames.
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