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Suicide Note Michael Jackson Should Have Written

The suicide note Michael Jackson should have written… Dear mama, blame this on he who is my jepeto he made me this way never hesitant in reminding me of just how many strings he had to pull to get me this far, Pinocchio's one wish was my entire autobiography -my father's love always came with too many strings attached I too was a puppet force to wear identity crisis as a second skin tone that flesh and bone were too much to ask from God every time I lied my legend grew perhaps my biggest mistake was thinking my life would turn out exactly like my video for thriller, who knew that real demons would be so difficult to choreograph do you know what it feels like to have the world sucker punched in to you when you aren't looking? It feels like I should have called myself king much earlier my father's been crowning me since I was five, fear has become a song I am too scared to scream loneliness has reduced me to a myth trying desperately to pronounce itself human I'm a dancing machine with a short circuit, poster child for what happens when they run out of? ? ? for you to earlier so famous everyone knows who I am except me. Final mama, you never told me that the most beautiful parts of me were the ones that couldn't be surgically reconstructed, now I am so passing it Tupperware sends me fan mail, MAMA, you always said I was way too serious so I only used that bleach to show you that I can lighten up MAMA, they use to follow me religiously as if my concerts were a chance to see Christ second coming first hand, but besides the fact that we both have fathers named Joseph I don't see any similarities, compared to me Christ had it easy he was never asked to moonwalk on water, had the good fortune of being the only child, and he was only crucified once. MAMA, I am only writing this because my father is more likely to show up at my funeral than on my autopsy, and the truth will be a more tougher pill to swallow than the ones they will find in my stomach, the angels will dust my soul for fingerprints, and find evidence of your silence. why does my last breath have to be your first clue? Did you know that everytime I sang I want you back I was referring to my childhood MAMA, tell them, tell them that my innocence is still being held hostage in a basement somewhere in Gary Indiana, and all the money I made will never be enough to pay my fathers to ransom demands, MAMA, I am sorry for being so hell-bent on heaven but I would rather leave as your son then stay as his puppet, AND DEATH is the only thing sisscor enough TO CUT THESE DAMN STRINGS

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