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Dear Mom

Feeling so broken no mechanic can repair
Dark nights lonely days time is spinning away
calling out asking why can't i be free
But yet your getaway haunts me everyday
Asking every night why didn't you choose me
mama what did i do why did you leave
why was i always the one to reach out
waited on you as you drove right past me
seeking your love but ending with a shout
I tried loving after you left me alone
i'm tripping thought you were my ride or die
For seconds i had wished i were all gone
why can't a mother give instead of lie
I would lay my life down but i only feel like a token inside
broke every promise that you ever made,
Still for your sins I am the one who pays.
sit here so quiet In silent sorrow,
Pray to God that I might see tomorrow
I never asked you to drink alcohol,
never asked you for anything at all.
never asked you to raise any bit of hell,
Or for the household to be a jail cell
though the sorrow and pain and lonely tears
have been safe with me for a couple years
I'm over it now, I really am.
I think about it every now and then.
regret is all that can come with you, I swear
the scars i have can never be repaired
You stole all of my innocence that day,
You had other choices besides walking away
So much I want to say but it comes and goes like the ocean bay
I'd sit alone crying saying so many prayers
But I wasn't aware you were ripping away my emotional layers
The day you left I had a heart attack
But love is an emotion you lack
Never got to say goodbye
Now your the one wanting to say hi
After all these years you come back into my life
Saying sorry doesn't help the stabbing knife
Said I wasn't enough you needed more
You had me crying on the floor
Why do I always think you're enough
I'm sorry mama but I need to leave
There's so much I need to achieve I'm asking please
You don't have a clue about all the shame you put me through
Lost and confused I'm asking you to move
Tired of saying i'm fine open your eyes
can't escape all the task, so just take off my mask
knowing i don't measure up i despise
You left, then i understood the past
Now forced to talk to you knowing its all fake
hearing all your excusesI'm tired of this
just give me a break
Why can't you love, why are you abusive
you make me feel like a bottomless pit
wondering why you always have to pour
really thought we had something more
Left me in the dark I learned how to live life by myself
No longer do I need the mothers help
In your absence everything was tense, nothing made sense.
Was it denial the feeling was dense
You scent still clinging to the air
You broke me beyond repair
I stay stuck in place
Refuse to believe you think I'm a waste
waited for you to make things right
For the hurtful things you did to me that night
Blinded by the blindfold as it unfolds from me
Now I see I must do what you did for me
For the person you've forced me to be
I'd do anything to be wiped clean
I yell and scream praying you hear the things i need to speak
The undue burden of the sin I'm now culpable too make me weak
You taught me to hide behind the smile that you wear
But you left a child while shame continued to pile
Things you never taught me to feel are real
Hiding while denying led to death of a innocent child
Tired of suffering in silence
Stomping and shouting till every word is out
Sentenced to the land of solitaire due to defiance
dragons I didn't slay things I didn't say
Accused of being who my mother has become
Everyone thinks you shaped me like clay
But unlike you my heart isn't cold and numb

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