A Letter Poem by Lora Cooley

Everybody wants a reason for everything
It's so much easier with something to blame
It hurt for a reason
Last snowfall left splinters
Some winters never end
Sunshine is like lovers
Summers just pretend
I'm tired of the feeling here
It's too jobless year- round
It's not the weather
Not the streets
Every reason to leave -
Why I should be alone
Are made of flesh and bone
I've been thinking the only warmth is a warmth alone
A brand new life
Wave goodbye to the world
Glowing like beacons in the sea
Like lightning striking out near the edge of town
I've been thinking too much of you
Starting to trust there'd be a day to help muffle the past
Like thunder underwater
It's been years since I've been around you
What happened?
I think the thing is that I shut off from everything
I just shut off
I'm not sure it even matters
Sometimes things happen
I'm the only one who deals with it anyway
So do me a favor
Just put your fingers down
And keep your mouths shut
I know I seem angry
I'm not
I promise
And I will deal with it
I don't need opinions
Don't need them pointing out my problems
Don't need reminders
I know I should be finding another way
But just forgetting never really made sense to me
So I haven't been
I think you feel a little bit embarrassed for me
It was me that made it so hard
It never got me anywhere with anyone
I maybe never tried
Maybe I never tried at all