Again And Again Poem by Shraman bajracharya

how does this end, end of me
waiting in the lingering hours
with soft piece of god gift
Music and softly fading smoke
Inhaling deep sense of regrets
unchanged drama revolving all around
You aren't only the broken heart
Death is somewhere in unknown darkness
Why do u express
There aren't anyone to read it
stupidity writing just flowing with the time
Inferior dizzy as my mind get
i cling to the soft bed
then again the new day began with same sense
refiling oneself with energy
it hard to tell from where do you get
Nothing has meaning
Just a blank sheet of paper filing everyday
with same inevitable things
Taming oneself's foolishly
With the world's pleasure and knowledge
Aloofness in enigma
Ummagical and unchanged
Toils are still forbidden
hidden some where
in those dark caves within yourself
Hatred, love seems scornful, colorless
There is nothing to wait upon
Come nearer me
let me revivified in your unseen power
Change me and pass me to somewhere
where i don't need to prove myself
where i don't need to toil to reach somewhere
questioning and answering oneself
is just a boredom
Touch me, fill me with your beautiness
My temptation are getting weaker
Losing self balance
Your gift has become my sin
i can't afford it anymore
traumatized deeply
Companions are getting more weaker as i have lost my sense
I have no glory to feed to them, read them, play with them in a frolic laughter
The days used to be mine now it's not
As i am dwelling deeper in this globe
I get more bewilder with lots of wilderness
I have nothing to prove
Still i hold to on with immense care of your love
I am breathing
i am leaving
I am laughing
Putting the mysterious veil
I can't remove it..
And the things goes on....