All That I Lack, All That I Plan To Get Back Poem by Ashley Parker

I lack confidence the way an addict lacks control.
I lack self worth the way humanity lacks reason.
I lack strength like my will is stuck lower than below.
I lack importance like my soul is the last worth keeping.

I lack more than enough to stop my feet from moving.
I lack so much that the emptiness has become soothing.
I lack more than enough to stop my mind from thinking.
I lack so much that my dead weight started sinking.
I lack so much that I wonder what my name sounds like.
I lack so much that my demons finally took on the fight.
I lacked so much that the darkness gave me everything,
I lacked so much that all i lacked became nothing.
I lacked so much that I forgot just what I'm lacking.
I lacked so much that It finally stopped my crying.