Am I? - Poem by Tessa Eichhorst

Am I always what you dreamed
or hoped for? Am I the ideal
type as some would say? Do
I make your head spin and
heart anguish? Am I the girl
you could fall in love with?

These are the questions I
ponder if this is how you
look at me. Sometimes I find
myself saying, 'I hope so',
under my breath. Other times
I pray it's not, for I am
not picture perfect of a
'dream' girl.

When it comes from me to you,
I often hear my thoughts run
about on what my mind and
heart should be saying. Often
times what my head conjers up
is, am I really feeling this?
Am I too dreamy of him; do I
talk him up too big? Am I right
for looking towards him, is
he the one I long for?

Usually after my mind plays its
part, my heart comes true, and
finds a deeper meaning. Why am
I falling for him? Why am I
feeling this way? How can he
make me smile from just one
word out of his mouth? Am I
putting everything aside? Is
he truly the one? And the
question in my heart most of
all, am I possibly falling
in love with him?

Certainly the only way to find
out these answers is really ask
these questions...so am I?