Anger Consumes Me Poem by Astrid Hardjana

Anger consumes me

At the knowledge
of my abilities and goals
and the prevention
my disability cause.

I wish to be of help.
I wish to bring good cheer.
I wish to encourage
and desire to spread some hope.

My disability prevents.
I can't be part of the world.
I can't easily use my help
or good cheer to encourage hope.

Why do I have this prevention?
I only wish so spread positivity.
Why am I confined
and haunted in my loneliness?

I have tried
and placed my efforts
but forever there is prevention
to haunt and discourage

I hardly give up
or stop with my goals.
Yet it continues to haunt,
prevent and discourage.

As time drags on
anger has come.
I do not wish to alter my goals
but it has become a difficulty.

With my disability,
anger consumes me.