April.30.2010 Poem by kendyll brown

i am going to take this time to vent my mind
i have constantly searched my soul
i have found a hole
there is nothing to live for anymore
noticing peoples stares, i dont care
i cant even face myself in the mirror
i throw my hand up knowing i cant stand being alone anymore
being nice killed my spirits even more
the nicer i was, the pain hates me
no one knows of my saddness pleas
i dont want anyone to see
see me on my knees crying for the hundredth time
my emotions have took a toll on me
the way i am, no one understands me
no one even cares to look at me
the sad thing is that they wont notice
when im gone
not knowing my name very long
the way my life has been
i know i wont carry on