Because You; But I Poem by Lauren Beasley

I was so happy just to be with you
even though I wasn't happy
I wanted so badly to be everything you wanted
'cause you were everything I had dreamed of
And despite the glaring red flags of our incompatibility
I wanted so desperately to make us work

Because you were all I wanted
but I was just another name to add to the list

I told myself we were meant to be
despite being reminded daily that we were not
I tried to conform to your every need
and thus decided mine weren't important
And I was blinded by the sweet talk
while being let down by empty promises

Because you were my first love
but I was just an experiment

You tried to change me
and I wished that you could
I desired to be your ideal woman
knowing full well I would never live up
And it hurt me then, realizing I'm not her
yet it hurts me more today

Because I'll never be perfect for you
but you're still perfect to me