Betrayal Poem by Shraman bajracharya

This highest degree of truama, You left to me
Which won't fade out even from my death
Are truely yours
You have set the paradigm of betrayal
The betrayal that i will live forever
From where do i start, from where do i began
The complete sense of lost
THe lost unmeasurable, untolareable
The quivering body, you left to me
The shivering soul, you left to me
Are truely Ours
My musing thoughts
Aren't healing by the time
This time i am left insane
Insane of the memories you left
Are truely yours
The life long journey seems long
Absurd, thickful, black
The sun warthm even aren't filling me
The night are mocking me
You have left me nowhere
No where
Oh lord! please tell me this isn't real
wake me from the nightmare
Proved me this isn't real
I am spining
I am losing every possible breathe
This distrust, this loneliness
Are questioning me?
My days are lingering in every memories
That we had met on the loving day
Those wild memories are haunting me
Everywhere every time
I keep pretending
I keep breathing
Toiling hard to truimph over your betrayal
But this whirlpool has keep locking
Deeply locking me from inside and outside
Oh lord! PLease assure me this aren't real
The veil you covered in my face
With darkness
had spreaded the venom in my heart
I gave everything you need
All the glory of love in this earth
But why still you walked away
Am i not the one who is flexible?
Loveable, twist able, measureable
What's the reasons of this distrust
I even couldn't question you?
This betrayal you set
Are truely ours
My open heart will still ponder for you
The sharp knife you threw in my heart
i will throw them
still why do i pray for prosperity of ours
ANd i will grow ever harder
BUt the smear of our betrayal
willn't wash out..