Bittersweet Memories Poem by Lundi Ncuthu

When she smiled, brushed my hair
melted my heart, showed her love
she became my superwoman
For the pain, she had endured, for love
she had given, despite her plights
she always wore a smile
She made her cries in the rain
and always uttered her love
I had no idea of love
never understood the feeling
I was young as a fledgling bird

I've grown to understand
but she's no longer there
to assure me of her love
to give me her strength to fight or
give me love worth living for nor to
hold my hand when fear befalls me
and show me light when darkness rises

I was once shown love but I too young to understand
Once I was cared for but too young to appreciate it
Now that I've grown up, the world has turned
Standing here confused
my path is filled with undergrowth
nothing is worth living for
except these bittersweet memories

When cancer didn't exist, we smiled as the sun
soared towards sunset
This is our one spot where we used to sit
and gazed at the sunset

For she said, there is healing in the beauty of the sunset
I've died before death and wish that I never grew up
as a sunflower seeking the light, but found by darkness
Wish I could be a firefly and walk through the darkness
Bitterly sweet memories, death is as an eagle
reaping what it hadn't sown

For she was a mother, a best friend
a teacher, a lover and a loved one
Death made me an orphan and tore my heart apart
Tears make salty oceans, they took my love
and made me a victim
Now I am a lone wolf
bitterly sweet memories