Blue Skies Appear Momentarily, Then Disappear Poem by Lucas Pate

This constant consternation..
How shall i escape it?
How can i step outside these boundaries,
That I've been confounded to?
Encroaching back to sanity,
But never quite getting there.
All the insane attempts to make me be able to breathe again.
All the lackluster efforts,
To make me feel loved again.
How can i possibly feel whole again?
Lost in everyday confusion.
Lost in my head.
How do i sedate my wandering mind?
I wanna know how it feels,
To stand alone at the top.
But i am confined to being lost in confusion,
And alone at the bottom.
Why am i confused?
So hurt?
So Lost?
This leaves me perplexed.
How can i ask for help,
When i don't know the cause of all of this?
Barely staying afloat.
Struggling to find steady ground.
Have I forgotten myself?