Burdens I Carry Poem by MAD DEW

This depression just won't stop filling me
And this depression is slowly killing me
I am tired of the burdens I carry on my shoulders
Lately they feel heavier than a thousand boulders
I can't even set a foot in the damn barn without crying
I can't go in there without thinking about Dave dying
And having to cremate him in those hellish flames
I try my best, but I'll always be one of the lames
I have dreams of a great big classic Cadillac
But can't even afford to fix my hatchback
I want to write poems to a girl I am dating
But instead I write about the life I am hating
I am not recognized as a true poet
I have a torn heart and can't sew it
Everyday my mental state grows worse
And I think more and more of the hearse
I want these negative thoughts to cease
But I can never seem to find any peace
I can never get my anxiety to subside
I feel a constant tension deep inside
I have dreams of Heaven
But I'm in my Hell 24/7
I am so bent out of shape
I need to find an escape
From all of my anxiety and pain
Before I go completely insane