Conclusion Of Silence Poem by Wolfie God

How can this be a life, my mind lost to a dream unexpected.
Time settles in for a nap, as I sculpt my emotional endings.
Did I do what was necessary to save myself in this nightmare?
No how could I save myself from losing a game already played.
Don’t watch me wither away; this was not your ending but mine.
Against the odds I can’t win.

Suffer in a closed box of solitude, remain quiet or they will know.
You will drift into a blackness most never see, this is your hatred.
Lifeless I have become, a monster both inside and out.
This place traps me like an animal in a cage, only to be mocked and beaten down.
Silence becomes my only friend.

Can this really be happening, my mind wanders poking holes in the paper reality.
I guess it was enviable that I shall again lose what was once comforting.
Figures dance a slow dance in my mind, cautiously watching my life playback.
Designs of the greater plan, lost in construction I dwindle away.
Loss becomes my companion.

The edges of focus blurring to be looked upon through tear filled eyes.
Cascading images swiftly shift and shape themselves to understanding.
I live through a hated life and a desecration of my being.
Temple no longer but a playground of misery unfolded.
Anger succumbs to fear.

Uncommitted to a final defeat, I no longer care anymore.
Silent fears beckon to my door, carrying agony in its arms.
Free me from such bizarre and twisted thoughts.
I close the door to a life I knew.
Defeated by my heart.
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