Confessions Of An Addict Poem by Strydar Enox

DMT
Ignite
Inhale smoke
My mind melts
My surrounding become fire.
Am I dead or alive?
Stuck in a rainbow of colors
My thoughts they manifest and became real.
I feel connected I am filled with joy.
Filled with awe, overcome with care. This isn't fair.
My peak just hit my mind was lost; Find it?

THC
Clouds
So high
My worries relax
My cares diminish, gone.
Pillows pressed against my mind.
Safe in the apathy I find.
Blinded by the smoke in my eyes.
A tear falls, soon after I forgot why.
Take a dab, smoke a joint, hold it longer.
Puff it twice pass it left for one more round.

LSD
Therapy
Darkness found.
A bad trip?
Do I dare continue?
Am I truly missed?
Question my morals reasoning none.
What will I find deeper I dig.
Its who I was born to be.
My light lost when placed on my tongue.
Demons inside, truths laced with lies and I continue.
Through the dark facade my face I failed to find.

MDMA
Depression
Emotions unlocked
Filled with love
A mind of care.
my body shaking in dance.
Do I take more? pop another.
Rail a line it burns so fine.
Take a hug, our bodies melt into one.
A thousand colors a million smiles And I'm one.
Cuddle puddle, time to crash lets get some rest atlast

THE MIND
Conflicted.
Thought chaos.
A rebirthed man
Unsure of oneself's abilities
Yet pressured to strive on.
Stress over what's to come unrelenting
Smoke more weed, drink more booze. Repeat.
Make it stop I want to stop myself.
Yet I can't. One more drink. One more hit.
My conscious is fading my mind forced to stop dead.


PSYCHOSIS
Fear
No mind
Dark circles forming.
Are they coming now? .
I fear for the morrow
running around I find myself screaming.
Will this binge ever end I wonder?
On the ground I find myself flipping. why?
I broke my mind, And now I run away.
Faster my footfall continues. Eyes now open; I'm in bed.