Constant Thoughts Poem by David Chap Bottoms

That day I asked you
Has burned into my memory
Now I ponder it all
All those years and final moments
I felt lost but slowly began to realize
What I am truly looking for
To have in the end
Still I don't think I found it
But I hope to
I feel like I understand it
Yet I really don't
I want to understand
But I am still learning
I always will
So maybe being alone is good
Getting to know myself before others is best
I think I have been rushing
Towards all the wrong things
I am acting blind to everything
I haven't even tried thinking about it first
So I have to take what I have done
To learn from it and try again
But this time I won't be foolish