Crushable Technique Poem by JenOfPoetry METAPHORICALLY SPEAKING

Childhood crush became long term love.
Loving from him was effervescent.
Kissing him was immaculate.
Touching one another was supernatural.
He is unavailable to be reserved for an all-embracing engagement.
Unstable satisfaction was achievable and thought to be enough.
A touch would hold for a moment, emotions controlled.
But soon,
Like a feign, craving him became habitual
Wildly stirring sensations and affections,
Leaving her restless,
Thoughts of being with him became reruns in her dreams.
Falling in love with this man was not the plan she made
Close to having him
Too far to reach
Who knew the acquired affection consisting of a one sided relation
created in secret from long ago would turn into a bottom less love
Without him knowing, he had already
Become a part of her
In the callous development of her hard shell,
A persona of resistance chaperoning her delicate core,
A portion of his essence
Became protected in her heart
Little did she know it would soon cultivate
And grow into an unsatisfied appetite
Craving for his affection.
Unable to happily have this man as hers
Unable to have this man willingly want her in the same
Has now brought about contemplation.
Can she continue to torture her soul and remain?
As an alternative counterpart
Can she let him go and survive without his artistic ecstasy?
As difficult it is to accept, the reality, he is not hers to fight for.
The childhood infatuated passion will reside in her spirit
Until her life hopes, she holds are touched and released by him
Or
Until the true holder of her heart comes and sets her free

JenOfPoetry™
©5/20/13