Cursed Poem by Ryan David Ginsberg

He says that all of our past mistakes are forgiven
And a new life we are given
But why then do I still feel like the old me
Still the same horrid man I used to be
All these impurities in my head
I just want to put them to bed
But they seem to be permanently stuck
By evilness my heart has been struck
And it is leaking into my soul
So I am just stuck being so sinful
I just can't ever stop
I just wish my life I could swap
Just be a whole new man
Because I cannot stand the man I am
Cannot stand the man I've become
I am just slowly coming undone
Rotting from the inside out
The evil spirits inside just want to shout
So they just tear through my skin
Making me live in this life of sin
And I feel like there is no escape
And they have taken my life to rape
To strip, destroy, and to leave bare
So I get down to my knees for prayer
But when I open my mouth to speak
The evil spirits leave me too weak
So I just sit there, no words spoken
Sit there on my knees just broken
Cannot stand, cannot talk
Cannot get up from my knees to walk
Sit there frozen, sit there numb
Feeling useless, like complete scum
And from my eye a little tear drops
And from my knees I flop
Falling down, face first
Guess my life was always meant to be cursed