Dark Matters (For Roy Mulder) Poem by Roy Blokker

Namesake, I need to forgive.
You took yourself away from me
With no recourse
In unseen space and time
Where I could not follow,
Would not.
The theme has become familiar,
Played out before me now
Perhaps a dozen times, same song
New singer, same tears new criers,
And we you left behind,
We need to forgive.

Alanis sang: "Maybe we should stop
Equating death with stopping."
Her syncopation trickled golden
From her throat.
You hurt too much to listen,
Hurled yourself off a building,
Invisible and alone though so many
Were in love with you.
Maybe you didn't stop,
Only changed, only drove the pain away
At last, at last. And I?
What do I know of pain?
My easy life goes on and on,
Sadness just a visitor tucked in
For the cold night, that needs to forgive.