Demise - Poem by Rebecca Pepper

Im cold and im afraid, but I don't know from what
Im broken and destroyed by something I forgot
I told the truth but all they heard was cries
What has led me to this painful demise?

I don't care if you take me apart or fix me again
All I know is I forgot, was it for me or for them?
I ask you to colour in these snow white walls
Help me stay standing when insanity calls

I take a step forward and get pushed back two
The only one I really remember would be you
Every time I… what do they call it? Relapse?
Yours are the memories that prevent my collapse

Are you happy to know that I am so nearly yours?
That I am so close to following you without a pause
This sense of control in this relationship made you high
You believe you have me broken with one last try

Sorry to say my dear little power hungry friend
This is where your manipulative game ends
You see not once was I ever ‘yours' now you pay
Isn't it unfair how a little insanity takes it all away?