Ever Darkened Love... Poem by RK

The evening sun disappears
Behind a blackened landscape
My eyes attract no more tears
For too many have escaped...

I stare off into the distance
Lost in a memory from my past
I know it's no longer in existence
Yet it haunts me everlast...

Forever more I search for you
But this distance is too great
My heart keeps on moving through
Leaving behind only fate...

The mourning that some call life
I searcn for someone to hide
A road of alcohol lessens strife
Yet it burns me alive inside...

My soul is as hollow as the cavity
That once held my heart's emotion
A sudden pain courses through body
I've cut my arms without realization...

My body insists on living
While my mind does not at all
My hands are made unforgiving
With blade on my body they crawl...

I drain myself quite often now
A life less longing for future
I don't care when, don't care how
My way of life, self torture...

No one knows the pain that you gave
Neither I have the power to define
But I can't bear it, I'm tired to crave
On my body I follow my own lines...

My body is getting weaker
My mind might soon win the war
I'm plunging into a hole, deeper
Watching my fate from afar...

Yet my eyes search for light
Up ahead piercing the cage I've built
Within myself it's made of plight
Depression, anger, hate and guilt...

Misery that I've never known
I'm towards the end of my rope
A hand reaches me on its own
Defining me, creating new hope...

Pulls me into warm embrace
Now my eyes seem full of tears
They stream down all over my face
Washing away all my nightmares...

Soft lips kiss my tears away
And a voice whispers in my ear
Telling me it's going to be okay
Expressing love I always wanted to hear...

Heavy breathings make me fall asleep
Spreading new breath in the air
But everything goes dark again, deep
For the gentle hands that stroke my hair...