Everyday Is Different Poem by Steve Ricketts

Every day seem's different from the one before, it's not the days I'm dreading, but the night that goes before. Each time the night begins it's covering of the sky. I find myself asking for the reason why. Why did you have to leave me, why did we have to part, I need that very reason to satisfy my heart. It is my heart that's broken, and deserve to know the truth, it is that every reason why this hurt won't leave my heart alone.

When the night has fallen and I wait for sleep to come, knowing that my sleep, keeps on avoiding me and so I must keep on chasing this elusive sleep of mine, all while I am trying to get you from my mind, but your forever with me and also close to me, always and forever is what you are to me, often do I wonder if all the things I do. Is it, just to help me keep holding on to you?

Finally sleep arrives, so slowly first of all, just to let me know, that all the dreams coming, will be dreams of only you, so slow to take this slumber, although welcome it may be, now when I start dreaming, your back so close to me and then I see your image, I'm transfixed upon your smile, how could I not miss those precious lips of yours, the tender why you used them, to let me know I'm yours, it's then I start my staring at those beautiful brown eye's and for just a little moment, I can't divert my stare, how could I not miss you I whisper in your ear, for you are all my treasures and all that I hold dear.

Then the morning wakes me, I turn whilst starting to arise, suddenly I realise your gone from by my side. Now my grief is starting just like it did before, no more can I stop it, as I fall down to the floor, all my strength has left me, no fight can there be found. For I know this is a battle, that I will never win, I'll never claim that prize. Friends tell me it get's easier, I don' t answer anymore, for it's clear to me you see, that they never met you and could never have know the we, if they could only realise, what you are to me, I know that in an instant, they be crying just like me.