Finished But Still Writing Poem by Elandra Poindexter

finished....finished
ok
yea i used to be committed
but you hurt me
now too timid
to let my friends look me in my eyes again
and again
i wonder why
why did i cry
why am i shy
why are you so important to me
it was that vulnerability
i showed
yea it may not be true
but its like you took advantage of it...of me
you knew i was going to give you another chance
foolishly i did
funny how i dont regret it
or regret ever being with you
but i regret not letting you go sooner

NO 'true love'
should ever make my stomach turn
NO 'true friend'
should ever make me cry out of hurt and despair
NO 'true first kiss'
should ever feel so regrettable
NO my heart should never feel this way
this is why didn't want to put my guard down in the first place
NO you shouldn't have made me hurt like this
i will never regret our friendship
but you will regret what you put me through
you think you feel bad now
you should
you think your losing me now
to late for that

why have you beguiled me? ?

trust wore thin long ago
happiness was killed in the war of suspicion