For My Ex Poem by AnaLisa Bustamante

I told you that I loved you but that’s not what I meant to say.
I wanted to ask you why you hurt me and let me walk away.
I know I’m not perfect but still I try to be.
I love you but you hate me.

I let you in but you never gave me the same.
You left broken hearted standing in the rain.
I know you love someone else but still you can love me.
I am lost and confused andthis is close to aneness i'll ever be

I love you so much and my life was changed when you left.

I know I let you walk away but if only I convinced you
why you shouldn't leave.
I backed down without a fight and believed all you said to me.
If I fought for what was rightfully mine
maybe you and I could be happier that ever.

I know im human and I’m not the only one how makes mistakes
come on look at all the ones you've made.

I was still holding on when you let go.
I lied so convincingly through my throat.
I played along to such a hideous lie.
I kept laughing when I wanted to cry.

I fought harder when I didn't want to try any longer.
And when I was finished and helped you.
You let me fall and help myself up.
You didn't return the favor of helping.

But it made me realize I never said the truth
but simple as this: I HATE YOU

That’s what I meant to say.So if you read this, which I hope, you do.
My ex- for breaking my heart i will always hate you
You may have helped me in some ways
and when I realize it I will thank you then but until then

I love you and I hate you.
I can’t live with or without you.
But it’s much more painful to live without so I guess I will suffice.