Forbidden Poem by Chloee Desormeau

I try to tell myself I don't love you,
and yet every time I do,
I know in my heart it isn't true,
my heart still racing whenever I see you.

I miss the way I'd see you smile,
miss the tingling your touch gave me
I miss how you'd say you'd run a thousand miles
just so together we could be.

I am not allowed to love you,
to want you,
for I am supposed to hate you,
and every ounce of it should be true.

I know you have caused me pain,
caused me to lose myself
But for a reason so vain,
I cannot convince myself.

Every fiber in me is wanting,
for you they are desiring
If only you were willing
to start over from the beginning.

I wish thee feelings would flee,
and simply cease to exist
For they are killing every part of me,
Showing me everything I've missed.