Forgiveness Poem by Hope Elizabeth

5 years ago my mom died
And I didn’t even cry
I was happy that she was dead
No more dark, painful thoughts
Lurking in the back of my mind
All the drugs, all the yelling
All the hungry nights
All the times I blamed her for
Steven hitting us
Are finally gone

She was in a coma for 10 days
Before she finally woke
She asked to speak to me
In her cold, weak voice
She told me
“I’m sorry for what I did.
It was wrong and I hurt you.
Hope, I love you.
Please forgive me.”
She was dying of cancer
So I knew she was in pain
For 10 minutes I watched
Her cry out my name in vain
Asking, no begging me to forgive her
I could see how much
She wanted to hear the words
“I forgive you”
Now I am ashamed
I should’ve spoken up sooner
Because as she struggled for air
She said again
“I love you”
Inhaling her last breath
As God took her away

For 2 years
I was depressed, I was scared
I felt like no one was there
One night as I opened my Bible
And prayed my heart and soul out to God
I felt a presence
I looked beside me no one was there
I looked behind me no one was there
I looked upwards
And there was my Mommy
As an Angel
“I forgive you” I whispered.
She smiled and drifted back to Heaven
I immediately started crying
Asking God if this was real
He said, “Daughter stop your weeping.
I have shown you your mother to calm you.
Read My Word
Believe that My Son died for your sins
And you shall be healed.
Know that you are not alone
And that I am always with you.”

Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I'll lift up my soul. ~Psalms 143: 7-8~